3/6/22
I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I’ve consistently been at least 20 to 30 pounds under weight and as much as people tell me how jealous they are of me being skinny, I’ve always hated it.
There’s actually a bunch of health problems that comes with being extremely underweight like I’ve been that range from circulation issues which make me feel cold all the time and weakens my immune system to trouble staying hydrated which causes me to have a greater susceptibility to heatstroke and other issues.
And it’s not like I don’t eat. I eat a lot, my body just burns it off instead of converting it to fat like happens for most people.
Well, I recently started taking Remron for my anxiety, and I’m already seeing a major change in my body weight. I am 5′ 9″ (169 cm) tall. I was, before starting Remron, 130 lb (60 kg). Now, a month later, I am 141 lb (64 kg) and I am so happy about that. But it’s also a little weird for me. I’ve got a little bit of a pooch on my belly, there’s these saddle bags just on top of my kidneys, and now my thighs rub together just a little bit. None of these things have ever been a thing for me before.
Today my best friend told me I needed bigger clothes because mine were starting to get a little tight. I used to wear a size small T-shirt and medium shorts and I haven’t had a chance to exchange them yet but I’d put in for it. She shook her head “no, you need some bigger clothes now.” So she went and scared up a medium T-shirt and some XL shorts and they fit. I was shocked. Normally if I tried to put on a pair of XL shorts they would fall down as soon as I let go of them. Now they fit the same way the size mediums used to. And I’m actually not swimming in the T-shirt. It’s amazing.
Gaining weight is really showing me just how many things in my life are impacted by my size. I keep over estimating how much I need to wear for how cold it is outside. Where before I was cold wearing a swear shirt and a jacket, now I’m a little warm with just the sweatshirt. Just because I’ve put on a few pounds.
I’m hoping to put on just a little more, like 5-10 lb (2.3-4.5 kg) more. But we’ll see what happens
Amber Fayefox Kim 